Monthly Archives: April 2014

30a0414 BLOK / T.T

30a0414 BLOK / T.T

Part of a prayer I was taught as a child went, IF I SHOULD DIE BEFORE I WAKE, I PRAY THE LORD MY SOUL TO KEEP.  Now, what does that mean?  When I was a boy these were just words to me.  Now, these words have meaning!

And part of it means we think we have a soul that is worthy to be kept.  But, what is this and why?  Is this Eternal Life?

Maybe this line, these thoughts, have a figurative, rather than literal, meaning?  Maybe it means that the ‘waking’ isn’t from a physical sleep, but from the kind of ‘Not knowing that we don’t know!’  (Thank you, Dick H.)

Maybe it has to do with raising consciousness?  For if the soul is kept (safe), if must be for a very good reason!  Like, ‘please give me another chance’ as in redemption and/or resurrection!

Jung said the only ‘sin,’ is unconsciousness (before the waking up)!  So, what’s the challenge?  To ‘wake up’ before you die!  This is the true meaning of the quote from my childhood prayer.

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300414 BLOK / T.T.

300414 BLOK / T.T.

Marijuana, for pain, isn’t physical, but mental.  In fact, it can intensify the physical pain for me.  But, as they say, PAIN IS JUST WEAKNESS, DEPARTING YOUR BODY!  And so we get stronger, or die.  Marijuana is a mental solution for physical pain, as it distracts you. Suddenly you’re focused on something else, and the pain, although still there, is in the background.  It can be, as I just discovered, RIGHT-IN-YOUR-FACE PAIN!

I actually thought I was dying a few days ago, an experience I’ve never had before, ‘Chatting with the Grim Reaper!’  But, I was ‘ready to go,’ as had prepared!

Don’t be blindsided by death!  It can happen at any second, and what’s the last thing you want to have on your mind before you lose ego consciousness?

Whoa, the pain, but in Tantric Taoism we say

No pain, no pleasure!

So, how much pleasure can you stand?

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29e0414 BLOK / T.T.

29e0414 BLOK / T.T.

In April, ‘I’ was born again, into ‘we!’ (through pain).

‘Butt’ remember, these are only English words!

Translate the sentence into Chinese, or Spanish, or Serbo-Croatian, and see if the idea reminds intact, or something completely different?

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P.S.  As poets we are trying to deconstruct language.  Comprende?

29d0414 BLOK / T.T.

29d0414 BLOK / T.T.

from MY NAME IS RED, by Orhan Pamuk

pp.354;  chapter, I AM A WOMAN:

‘My fickle heart longs for the West

When I’m in the East!

And for the East,

When I’m in the West.

My other parts insist I be a woman

When I’m a man,

And a man when I’m a woman!

How difficult it is to be human,

Even worse is living a human life!

I only want to amuse myself frontside and


To be Eastern and Western both!’

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P.S.  This is a great clue as to achieving Union!

29c0414 BLOK / T.T.

29c0414 BLOK / T.T.

The clouds…

They form and then disappear.

Where do they come from,

Where do they go?

The Dragon Sky, why do we die?

Mother Sun and Father Earth,

The eternal balance preserving.

It’s we that are the problem, unbalancing, unknowing!

‘Conocimiento’ is when we do ‘no!’

‘Butt knot’ enough ‘dew!’  And so must go,


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29b0414 BLOK / T.T.

29b0414 BLOK / T.T.

Buddhism in 3 easy lessons:

1.  Life is suffering!

2.  ‘Get out the back, Jack!’ (Paul Simon)

3.  Stop the ‘Recycling’ process’ (Get enlightened this time!)!

In Tantric Taoism we would say:

But, maybe suffering has value as in the ‘Jesus Story.’

That you can’t get to ‘Heaven’ (enlightenment) without first going through ‘Hell!’

And ‘enlightenment’ to us is the Union of Compassion and Wisdom, Unconditional Love!

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290414 BLOK / T.T.

290414 BLOK / T.T.

No, we don’t seek pain consciously.  We don’t seek pain!  But sometimes, pain seeks ‘us,’  as the Great Teacher!

So, this time (April, 2014), what is the lesson, besides of course, the cycling one to be more careful?  I’m not sure, yet…

Maybe there is no reason, just that if, ‘no pain, no pleasure.’  We can’t have just one in our dual existence;  Yin-Yang, Female-Male, War-Peace, Night-Day, North-South, ad infinitum…

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28a0414 BLOK / T.T.

28a0414 BLOK / T.T.

There is a time of more,

And a time of less!

There is a time of war,

And a time of peace!

There is a time of male,

And a time of Female!

And the time of Female is here,

The Age of Kalki,

The Age of the Guan Yin!


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P.S.  The old white male patriarchy is dying!

270414 BLOK / T.T.

270414 BLOK / T.T.

If I were God, there would be no numbers,

No adding, no subtracting,

No multiplying, no dividing!

There would be nothing to account for,

Thus opened the door; nothingness!

There would be no money,

Only the honey from the bees!

If I were God!

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240414 BLOK / T.T.

240414 BLOK / T.T.

Last night I thought I was dying, truly, as this was so real I thought death actually possible!  I thought I might be having a heart attack as the extreme pain, on the left, midrib. But, I was ready to go as the possibility became so very real — interesting, as the first time in my life I’d felt this!  But, for some reason I knew I wasn’t having a heart attack, yet trying to figure what it could be?

When the pain cycle returned I’d walk outside and to my front gate and back, breathing Qi Gong style.  Note:  I had something like 6 to 10 attacks over the course of hours.  So intense it was during some cycles, I knew I was dying, had asked to die actually!  This pain, I’m sure similar to what it’s like to give birth to a human baby!  You want to scream!  Screaming helps actually!

So real it was last night I completed rewriting my TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN, note (who to contact in case of injury or death).  Edgar has one now.

And then, in the midst of it all, I realized what was going on… I was being crucified on a Cross, giving birth at the same time.  Giving birth to Unconditional Love, the union of compassion (male) and wisdom (female),


My Resurrection Day!

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